Some things I like

{via Pretentious and Pop}

I feel very cranky today. For a lot of different reasons. Partially I don't like where I am with my life right now. I know what I want to do next, and sticking around until I can get to the next feels excruciating. Especially since the next won't happen for about at least 2 or 3 years. That seems so far away. (I can make some changes in the mean time, luckily I don't have to be in stasis.)

Also the next step is very scary to me. I want to pursue a PhD in English and teach on a college level. That's scary. Because that's what I really want to do. At least I think that's what I really want. It's hard to know until I actually try. But if I'm honest with myself this is what I knew I wanted to do on the day I graduated from college. I love universities, I love thinking big thoughts, I love being a dork about literature, I love writing, I love researching. In short I love it all.

But here's the thing about doing what you love and what you want to do. If you fail at it, that's a scary. Whereas if you fail at some blip on the radar job it's no big thing. Because no matter how much our time and energy is consumed by the blip, it is ultimately a blip (at least let's hope, right?). I hope I will be able to look back and laugh about it. Because it needs to be laughed about. Even on the darkest of blipping days.

Besides all of that, I just feel restless. Sort of like a caged animal pacing back and forth. I feel like my life should be bigger than it is right now. Maybe I just need to start thinking bigger. Or maybe it's all about the perspective of what I have now. There's a lot that is awesome about my life.

On that note, here are a few of the awesome things that I like right now.

Omelets. My favorite combination right now is tomato, avocado and cottage cheese, with a little bit of pepper, and if you want some provolone cheese. Trust me, it is sooo good. I put the cottage cheese out on a paper towel for a little bit beforehand so it can drain. I love it.

Jaydiohead. Thought you were the only one who liked Radiohead and Jay-Z? Me too! But not so, Minty Fresh Beats mixed Jay-Z over Radiohead. The result is awesome. And! And you can download it for free! You can listen for free too.

I heard a quote once in a movie where someone is asked their taste in music. They say, "Oh I like a little bit of everything." And the asker says, "So that basically means you have no taste." That pretty much describes me. I like I a little bit of everything. So this mix is perfect.

Sookie Stackhouse Series. Bless you alliteration. I told you about the book I read in a day last week, right? Well it's a series and I have now read through book 7. I am anxiously awaiting the arrival of books 8 and 9. Ten will be out in October. There is nothing that fixes me quite like getting lost in a good series. I feel so much better than I did last week. Maybe it's because I get to step outside my life. Maybe I haven't really fixed anything. But being allowed to leave my life is like a godsend. Bless the bff for recommending this. (PS We need to send good vibes her way because her nose got broken while playing soccer last week and she has to go under the knife to get it fixed next Monday. Poor bff. Clumsiness must run in our friendship.)

Gelato. There is a little local place that produces such heavenly flavors like coconut, cinnamon, grapefruit, blood orange, pomegranate, blueberry, honey lavender, oh and my list could go on and on. I love that little place with all my heart. The honey lavender tastes like sunshine, and I'm not just being cheesy. If I close my eyes when I put it in my mouth, I'm instantly taken to a field of lavender and it's perfect sunny weather. It's heaven. I've been going at least once a week for the last month or so. And on Tuesday, I went twice. Bless the warm weather.

Eye shades. I love sleeping with something over my eyes. Couldn't tell you why. But I love the one pictured above.

I feel happier now.